you must know that's not an idle comment i can easily leave alone "the way i am"
because i've a notion that the way you are isn't something you show to others that it's something you try to live your life in spite of and i refuse to use this damned game as a means of trying to work it out
but do you think if i...
[Deep breath. Here we go.]
if i could let myself need you that you could find it in you to show me more of the man i'm needing?
at this point i'm not even sure what the truth of it is anymore. just a bunch of blurred lines and trying to be something i'm not.
[ An ambiguous way of saying he might be right, but hell if Bigby knows who — or what — he really is anymore. He'd be interested to know at least, whatever Thancred does manage to parse out.
But the question that follows overshadows all of that completely. ]
i could. i could try but i don't
i don't know how i'd feel if it turns i'm not the man you need even if i try to be.
[ Once burned, twice shy. Apt for someone weak to fire. ]
i understand that, i think the apprehension of the thought of being measured and found wanting
if i knew how to be rid of it i'd surely tell you but it's something i'm yet to work out for myself
what i will say is this no one i've ever needed has had to try to be that way quite the contrary i — i don't know that they thought much of my position at all
so you leave that bit to me i'll take you as you are, whatever your measure, and we'll see what comes of it
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"the way i am"
because i've a notion that the way you are isn't something you show to others
that it's something you try to live your life in spite of
and i refuse to use this damned game as a means of trying to work it out
but do you think if i...
[Deep breath. Here we go.]
if i could let myself need you
that you could find it in you to show me more of the man i'm needing?
no subject
just a bunch of blurred lines and trying to be something i'm not.
[ An ambiguous way of saying he might be right, but hell if Bigby knows who — or what — he really is anymore. He'd be interested to know at least, whatever Thancred does manage to parse out.
But the question that follows overshadows all of that completely. ]
i could.
i could try but i don't
i don't know how i'd feel if it turns i'm not the man you need even if i try to be.
[ Once burned, twice shy. Apt for someone weak to fire. ]
no subject
the apprehension of the thought of being measured and found wanting
if i knew how to be rid of it i'd surely tell you
but it's something i'm yet to work out for myself
what i will say is this
no one i've ever needed has had to try to be that way
quite the contrary i — i don't know that they thought much of my position at all
so you leave that bit to me
i'll take you as you are, whatever your measure, and we'll see what comes of it
no subject
always feels like i'm the only one trying to figure it all out.
not that i'd wish it on anyone else. just nice not to be alone.
if it means anything i'll take you as you are too. even the parts i don't know yet.
and
whatever they thought i'm sure they were glad to have you in their corner.
you really are something else than.